Making them all private seems a good idea, until I feel like something's lacking. Restarting bores me to tears, because refriending people takes a while. :( And I like my username now!
Ah. Bore.
Back to the main reason of blogging.
To whine.
I WANT TO WRITE SO BADLY. BUT I DON'T KNOW WHY THE WORDS JUST WON'T COME. There is trouble in paradise. Why won't you just resolve yourself? :(
Sigh. Sigh. On another note, I love chatting with Arky. Much love. :) I had a few cool ideas to incorporate in due to her help! (It did inspire me a little, but doesn't seem to help much in the writing area. Aw.)
I want to write. Why won't you come back Muse?
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sad - Music:Jump - Simple Plan
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aggravated - Music:Pictures of You - The Last Goodnight
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aggravated
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Anyone with ideas? :D
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I'd be forever grateful, really. If you do need more information, contact me? :) Loved to hear from you guys again too.
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And I'm so excited for it. Yes! Who's with me? :D
Well, November is a pretty busy month for me, but no matter, writing always comes first, methinks. Hee. And plots! People, what are your plots for NaNoWriMo this year? Outlines done already?
I'm just going to use my previous plots, and Ashley's raring to go already! Wheeeee! :)
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excited - Music:Mamma Mia!
And so, whaddya think? :D Might not look the same as what you have in mind, but what the heck.
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artistic - Music:Just So You Know - Jesse McCartney
Or it could be due to the fact that I wanted to RP last time. And had to do up an account. Which inevitably lead to posting up materials, that I could not post up there for fear of it being stolen.
Anyways, I hope you like them. :D
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artistic
So, I sketched a little the other night, at about 2 in the morning, when I was feeling particularly bored. These sketches aren't the greatest, nor are they pretty, or whatever, but I'm rather proud of them.
I'm kinda embarrassed posting this up, but whatever man, you can mock them with me. :D
Just so you know, I did them without looking at any other references or anything, so they suck a lot.
P/S: If you'd rather not click on each picture to enlarge it, you can always click here instead. It's the same post, just with bigger pictures.
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artistic
I wanted to do some exercise for my characters today, but my emotions are so stormy right now, I can't, for the life of me, think of anything besides angst thoughts. I did, though, write quite a bit yesterday. It didn't reach to the thousands, but it made me happy. Yesterday, that is.
I've realized that I like really prosy words though. I can't help but add some purple prose into whatever I'm writing, and I hate that.
Example: The only thing that she could do was to run, every so often, her hands would shake, not out of fear, but there was some memory of her doing something with them. There was a memory of fire of ice of wind of water running through her fingers, filling her with power, and then there was nothing.
And that is all for today. I just made my Mum mad with all my emo-ness and I'm just going to go make some pancakes right now. Happy pancakes to make me happy. I hope. Doesn't matter if it's actually nine at night.
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crappy
Wheee, instead of writing today, I spent four hours painting! Pictures here!
But I've been making some progress. I guess. See, after that blow from my SIs, I decided to redo the whole thing, and I actually wrote a thousand words or so. In fact, after 500+ words, there was supposed to be some fight with some monster. The thing that irked me was the fact that there was action too early in the story, and I hated that.
Long story short, I'm back to Draft 1 Take Two again, instead of Draft 1 Take Three. :D
Another problem of mine, is that I find myself writing just to write, just to get over a scene, and not because of the fun of it. I don't like that. But I guess since I've decided to start right at the beginning, I should bear with it. And I shall!
Yeah. :)
And this is my meter for my story. Hmmm, planning to write 100,000 words before July. Hopefully, I'll succeed. :D And the wordcount does not include the scenes in between the conflict and end that I've written out. It's a new wordcount for my new draft! Wheee~
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creative
I asked her if she would be interested in reading my novel, if she had read the first chapter. Which I just rewrote because the former versions, while it didn't suck, was boring.
She glimpsed through it, asked me why was Erin such a bitch to which I promptly replied, "Well, she acts like you anyway." And then she stared at me, and said, "It's so boring. I didn't even want to read it." Oh. Okay. Hmm, back to the drawing board then.
Then she added. "I don't think this was your best effort. It was terrible." Because I'm supposed to be the ultra cool sister (I'm telling ya, my siblings like, worship me. The first time I swore in front of them, they poked each other and my sister went, "See I told you she swears!" And my brother shook his head. "Never thought she would, ever." I was like, 'Damn, ruined my image.') I just shrugged and said, "Yeah." Inside, I was screaming, 'Not my best effort? I cracked my head opened writing it! It was damn bloody hard!'
Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.
I shouldn't have asked her what she thought of it yet, now I have no desire to continue, and I want to edit Chapter One again. Urgh. Urgh.
ETA: Oooh, Fullmetal Alchemist 83 just made me feel so much better. Now I'll go *squeee* over Greed and Ling, and Ed. Awwww. .
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crushed
I GOT THE SCHOLARSHIP THAT I WANTED SO BADLY.
I'm so happy. :D
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jubilant
Hello. Haven't been updating my progress of Write De Mayo. Possibly because I've given up on my first goal, and deciding on a second one. I don't know if it goes against the rules for the one I joined, but what the heck. I haven't been writing much either. Other than random notes, and the interview stuff.
I've been reading up limyaael's rants as I've said, and I find what she's been ranting about very interesting. Have been reading all her rants from the year 2003 and most of them are breaking my mind and all, but its good. Awesome even. I've took notes, laughed over some of what I feel strongly about too, and cringed over those traps/tropes that I too, have fallen into. Thankfully, not many, and most of it were done when I was much, much younger. (I'd say there's a whole lot difference in maturity when you're 15 and when you're 17.)
But yes, I'm making plans for my stories. I do have the basics for them, and I thought I'd expand on them later when I got to it while writing the novel. But right now, after reading her rants, I have a really strong desire to just go and plan out the separate societies in my fantasy world. It might take weeks, months even to do so, but I think the one of the biggest society in my world can be done within the month of May.
Even my magickal history which I have done might be revamped. If only a little. I'll just go through all the notes I have on the world and perhaps tweak it here and there. I'm not too worried about my characters seeing how they're doing really well as of now. Just a tiny bit more detail on Daniel, Kassie, and Ryan. Then I'm done.
Yep. I'm happy with what I've done for the other six though. I don't know if I should post what I did with the exercise up since it's kinda rough around the edges and I don't really want to go through them now. I was thinking of leaving it for a few days after my muse on the Dr'ealm dries off and then getting back into this. But if you want to read about them, do leave me a comment. :D
And now I'm back to reading the rants.
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creative - Music:Hazard - Richard Marx
In that blog post that got eaten by LJ yesterday, I wanted to mention how I felt so terrible because I'm not confident in my writing skills. Because yes, I think they suck, and I know I need loads more improvement, but I still want to get that novel published by the end of this year! I know I wouldn't have any trouble finding publishers where I'm from because they're happy enough to get more local writers to publish something. (Just so you know, I have a short story that's about to be published in a book by next year. It's about a taxi driver and my country. :D I would probably have no problem getting them to publish my book.. I think.)
But after reading some rants by
Hmmm, now I'm gonna go all out to write and actually complete Baby1, sucky or no sucky writing. Because I can! I am so gonna show that woman I rock! Hell yeah! (For more information, please read about my horrid interview. It's only one line which explains this, but I'm all for self-promoting my other personal blog. ;D)
Will post up the exercise that I've done once I complete the other few questions. Tata!
P/S: I just thought of a site that I posted all my original short stories in. I'd probably dig them up and edit them just so you guys can read them and tell me what you think. In fact, I'd probably post them to this NaNo site as well, just to see if it's good enough for any publication. If you want to see the unedited version, and probably terribly sucky version (Since I wrote them a few years back, and the last being
P/S/S: This is something I wanted to put up yesterday. Nothing much, but just ideas I wanted to expand on.
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cheerful - Music:Linkin Park - No More Sorrow
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angry
The fact that my computer ate some few hundreds of precious, awesome words for part of my story interview really pissed me off though. And worst still, since I wrote that like few hours ago without backing up, I can't remember exactly what I've written and the rewrite just doesn't seem as awesome as what I've written before. Sigh.
Forgive me, this blog was supposed to only be used for writing rants.
So yeah. I think those 1506 words were alright though. And if I had the time to actually sit down and write without any distractions whatsoever, I'd be able to finish all the questions I directed at myself. I just need a few hours, and a running muse and it'd be great. Too bad I can't though, real life's pretty hectic nowadays. And tomorrow I gotta prepare myself for that interview.
Which means no writing. Which just sucks. Cause I'm in the mood.
Why is it that when I don't have the time to write, I just get this wonderful ideas that just needs time to be properly written down? And yet, days ago, when I was free as shit, I couldn't even write anything. Gah! What's wrong with me?
Anyways, the bed's calling me. Tomorrow shall be a day of prep.
Wish me luck.
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aggravated
I've actually written about 3752 words so far, and I'm still ready to write some more!
It's a pity Scorpteen (Who created
Hmm. Even seem busy with school and real life.
Ah. Which reminds me of my own upcoming interview which I haven't prepared for. Apparently some hard core questions are going be thrown at me and I should be ready
Funny isn't it?
Oh well. At least I'm inspired to write now. Even if it's weird and not really my WIP. But it's an exercise I enjoy doing. Heh.
Go me! (Since my writing buddy Scorpteen isn't here to cheer me on with her gambate!!! I know, I rely on her too much. But she's cool! XP)
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accomplished
Today is Day 5, for me at least.
But before that I'm just gonna say that Day 3 was a complete bust. Only 100 words of a random scene. Which isn't even in Story 1. Day 4, was slightly more gratifying. I wrote at least 2000 words of conversations between my 14 characters which relates to their relationship with one another. This led to today's work, interviews with each of them regarding a certain question. In fact, I've already planned many more questions I always found myself thinking hard of what they would actually do, but haven't quite answered it yet. This is a grand opportunity to do so when I'm on the mood.
This means that I'm not working on my Write De Mayo goal though, and that kinda sucks. I've only done NaNoWriMo once and won, but this time I don't quite feel the pressure to push myself to finish that 50000 words. Maybe because I'm tired of writing unplanned stuff and I want things to stick right this time.
I don't know.
I do know that I want Baby1/Story1/Ashley to be right and right.
Makes no sense whatsoever, but yeah.
Will be posting up the interviews between the Trails of Destiny characters when I'm done with all 14 of them. Or was it 13? Gah.
Having fun though. :D I think that matters.
P/S: Ooh, and on another note, this article just made my day. A little overrated, but still hilarious. I believe I went through this phase just last year, and recently when I first joined LJ. It's lucky that I've managed to drag myself through that addiction, and actually make time to still write. Well, I suppose it's also due to the fact that I rarely get addicted to anything. Except the internet. That I can't live without.
And chocolate. :D
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I like pressuring myself to do something. I usually get more things done that way. It's the mindset of humans really. We procrastinate until we have nearly no more time left, then we set our mind to it, and do it seriously. Of course, there are those who never procrastinate and are diligent workers, but blah, I'm not one of them, so pressure is a must for me.
Anyway, I've decided to join this programme/bet called Write De Mayo. To those to lazy to click the link, it's basically a month long writing challenge.
In this challenge you set your writing goal for the month of May and we help cheer you toward the finish line. You can take a page out of the NaNoWriMo book and chose 50,000 words as your goal, you can emulate NaNoEdMo and decide to revise your last NaNo novel, you can set a page count goal, submission goal or anything else you want. The sky is the limit. This is your challenge, pick one that won't be too easy to accomplish, but don't make it impossible either. The idea is to challenge yourself, not have a cakewalk or set yourself up for failure.
Yeah, so the goal that I've set is the usual NaNoWriMo challenge. 50 000 words in a month.
Though, I've hit a block right at the very start and right now I'm just tearing my hair out. Blah. It's horrible, really, since I can think of loads to write, but I just can't because of this stupid plot hole that I can't get past.
Worst still, the plot hole is the basic storyline for my series, and without overcoming this, I won't be able to do much at all.
Blah. Just ranting.
